Being human is a wonder. But with all that we are, much of what we’ve done to each other is unspeakable. You would think that with the things we’ve invented, discovered and become, we’d be better. We’d learn to do better. But even as we dismantle the Earth with our greed, making our buildings bigger, our walls higher and our lives “better”, we make the same dumb mistakes over and over .. and over and over again. How can we, these sentient bags of flesh who have managed to build civilizations from dust, keep falling for the same things? Why do we keep living and dying in the same ways? Why are we stuck in this repetitive cycle, desperate for perfection and still tripping on our own feet?
Some of us believe it’s the sin in us. After the fall of the first man and woman, we haven’t been able to recover. We can’t dig ourselves out of our own patterns of behavior because we cannot save ourselves. We need a Saviour. I believe that, I believe in God. But that doesn’t make our deeply flawed humanity any harder to understand or accept. What about people who don’t believe that? The ones who believe we evolved or appeared or whatever other ways we’ve created to explain our existence. How do they deal with all they see? How do they explain our failures? Do they just accept that there will always be good and bad in the world, that we’ll always live and die but somehow the human race will just continue on until we’ve ravaged the Earth irreversibly? Then what? The sun swallows us whole and we are no more?
What a waste of time it is to be evil. To hurt people. We have this one life. Whether you believe in an afterlife or you believe this is all we’ll ever get, this existence as it is now is our only chance at this. And to squander it hurting people unapologetically? To never grow or learn or adapt or change your opinions because you’ve been bred in hate and refuse to rise above it? This whole Trump presidency has made my soul ache. Sometimes it’s funny, seeing a bumbling old man embarrass himself. But most of the time, it isn’t that funny. Because while Trump himself can be ignored, the hatred he’s unearthed that never really went away? That can’t be ignored. That’s right there in our faces, everyday. It’s a daily reminder that some people are just evil, that their whole lives have been built on their own gratification, and that the suffering of others is inconsequential.
Anyway. Sorry if this is rambling and depressing. I just wish things were better, that we could do better. On a much happier note, I saw the movie Coco today and I HIGHLY recommend you go see it. You don’t need to have kids to (I clearly do not). But also take your kids (if you have them). It’s a visually stunning movie, with a really beautiful story. I do not cry publicly under any circumstance, but I cried real human tears during this movie, more than once.
I hope if you’re troubled or busy or sad or depressed, you can snatch a few moments of peace this weekend or this week or this month. I hope the Christmas season (even with its corporatization) sparks some kind of joy in you. I’m sure my existential crisis didn’t help! But either way, happy thoughts my solitary reader!